Not a Number

I am not a number.
I won't be defined by the year I was born.
People should not be lumped
into an 'over the hill.' box because a calender says so.
Perhaps the climb has just begun?
Maybe the best days are yet ahead?
(in my case that must certainly apply.)
Youth worshiping media,
don't wrap me in an afghan and hand me
geritol.
I won't give up till God says it is time.
Until then, I am young.
My heart tells me so.
I work hard. I love life. I am healthy,
not at death's door.
I've known people younger in years that are older
than me, in heart and body, and soul.
If you think in numbers, then you will be the calender watcher.
I am not a number.
Maybe you are.

Living without love

Time has past,
Wounds have been mended.
Wistful Memories are all that is left.
Dreams I  thought shared,
are now dust bunnies in the corners of my heart.
My life began anew.
Crept from the shadows of what was,
it was a slow climb, time spent pushing myself;
laborious brushing away of pain,
pushing hurt and the
bad memories away.
No longer tight rope walking on the edge,
I am well past the struggle that was.
Never would have thought
to be starting again, but here I am.
Not looking to replace,
some things still cannot be pushed aside.
I would be foolish to jump in again,
a trigger response soon regretted.
For the Love that I believed was forever,
was only temporary on the other side.
There is really not
a need to fill in the blank that was left.
I had my shot at a forever love,
and it disappeared in a heart beat.
Now there is just me.
Living.
I've remembered how to laugh again.
Not  searching for love.
Not something to be forced,
it will happen or it won't.
I can live with that.

k

Leap of Faith

Love is a leap
of faith,
will you plunge through
the air?
Or will arms be there to catch you?
Eyes closed..wind blowing
your hair back, the feeling
of falling, wind whistling
as you tumble in mid air..
faith...is in the arms that reach
to pull you to safety.
That is love returned...
a rescue;
but that first step is a doozy.

just thoughts,
k

Karma

Mystical
and
Eventual,
Rendering
of
Justice.


Karma.

For those that
need a Biblical reference...
as you sow, so shall you reap.

I don't get it

I admit to being confused
on your repeated 'popping in for a visit' views.
Wondering what it is you seek,
when you pop in here to take a peek?
By now it is obvious that I'll do no harm,
your false words to her spread needless alarm.
I was never the black hat, the real evil doer,
no matter what untruths you shared with her.
The only thing of which I was wrong,
was loving you, despite it all, for so very long.
I was guilty of nothing, except unrelenting hope,
that you would wake up, and not be such a dope.
I had faith, but I was alone in that respect,
for you had none in me, and that is a fact.

k

**See the comments for further clarification.
It's kind of strange that you read my poetry and
not my other blog. But then, you are not often mentioned
there anymore.**

5th gear

Nothing new here..
(turns pockets out to show them empty.)
Not sure what you are looking for...
I've changed direction, gone a different route.
You can digress and review messages
that have past,
but you will not find me there.
I have gone on ahead, without
old passengers and hitch-hikers.
No longer idling my engine,
I've shifted gear, gaining
speed, moving  far from what was;
looking forward to what lies
over the horizon.
Pushed it  into 5th gear, smoothly flying
further away.

k