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For years
you claimed to always protect
even in the most dire circumstances..you said you would be there,
that I should never doubt your strength, and your love.
You were my knight, my muse, my best friend,
and always my lover.
My thoughts never strayed,
 my heart remained faithful and true.
I fought to keep something that I believed
with all my heart, to be worth any pain.
But in the end, my protector became
my villain...in a heartbeat,
years gone, and flung under the bus
that were your own plans, not shared, at least
not with me.
I am still bewildered at times
as to how it all came to be,
my only surety that it was not something
I would ever had predicted for us.
Why I remain still thinking upon it after many
months have gone by...
why the shock and pain, though dulled, are still with me...
I wish I could answer, but in truth, I cannot.
Some dreams die hard.
Some loves are never replaced.
Some pain never goes away,
no matter how much you want it to.
And I do.