Tuesday, October 27, 2015

October

*I simply cannot let my favorite month slip by without mentioning the thoughts and feelings it stirs. :-)*

Tonight the moon is full and glowing
and the wind sends full gusts of frosty air,
scattering fallen leaves into whirl winds
of skittering sound;
a million tiny clawed feet
madly dashing across flat roads.
It's the time that I feel the most alive,
the most energized,
it's the time of change.

Perhaps it is old blood memories
of a time before
when October meant urgency
to gather and store for a harsh winter ahead.
Maybe my blood also sings of
old beliefs and superstitions,
of the Wild Hunt
and hiding near a bright fire
with the first of the Jack-o-Lanterns
scaring dreaded beasts and the dead
away from the threshold.

Then to be out on such a night
would cause the bravest of souls to freeze
in terror at every sound that might be a footstep.
Now our imaginations place
monsters and ghosts a foot.
behind bushes and trees,
as we gather little monsters
to call on neighbors and beg for
sweets.

So many share this feeling
of anticipation to be frightened,
to be surprised enough to scream out loud,
then laugh at our foolishness,
that it has to be that we all carry blood memories
of those long lost days, of a much simpler
time, of days and nights spent in
celebration of the changing seasons.

Autumn's Samhain, celebrating the end of the harvest,
and honoring the dead.

~K



Monday, August 31, 2015

Not a good day

Trapped
that ol' black hole has swallowed me. 
It's been a while, and I do not welcome it back.

Decisions
made with best intentions that turned out wrong.
Wish I could stop doing that.

Self pity
oh yeah, I hate it, but sometimes it's hard to get rid of.
I cannot wait 20 years to fix this.

Direction
really not sure which way to go, the prognosis is not clear.
Only certainty is that it cannot remain static.

Day dreams
only make it worse, imagining wonderful times to be had.
Then I wake up and reality just is not cutting it anymore.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Too

*Sometimes in retrospect we can see how we failed ourselves.*

I was too desperate to have someone who could make me laugh 
and love again.

I was too needy to spot a con when it was right in my face.

I was too lonely to ponder self doubt.

I wanted it too much.

I ignored my inner voice because I wanted love.

I forgave, because it seemed the right thing to do.

Too many lies destroyed my trust.

I suffered because of this.

Today I am happy with myself.

Tomorrow someone will have to prove
that they are  "too good" for me to push away. 

I am so much wiser than I was.

So tell me that you too rare to ignore.

And I will think about it.

Show me...and mean it..and I will decide if you are...

Too much to be true..or I will believe.

~K



Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Where oh where

"Where oh where are you tonight?
Why did you leave me here all alone?
I've searched the world over and
thought I found true love,
but you found another and
'pppfft' you were gone."

Not mine, borrowed.
Used to sing it back
when I worked Fine Jewelry
with a Miss Rita Palin.
Long, long , ago.

Memories.

Monday, February 9, 2015

The Coyotes Song

Nightfall.
Stars show their light
and dot the sky
with pieces of the heavens
seen by naked eye.

The moon rises,
with feathery white wisps
that frame it's face.
Peeking in and out
light shines on the open space.

High above
voices lift
in an ancient song
as coyotes bring
music to
a future dawn.

Long howls
so mournful a tune
are accompanied
with youthful yips
of pups who try
to howl at the moon.